Praying for you through this. We sold our beautiful home and left our beautiful community last year April 2024 (left) sold home in July 2024 at barely breaking even. I wish in retrospect we hadn’t, and I’d just continued to have faith in the Lord maybe rented the home or something instead of selling. The thing is looking back the Lord was providing for us through our hardship, but I pushed us to leave because I was afraid. So many months of God providing our every need…I was still afraid. I mean truly, it’s strange thinking back on all the financial windfalls God provided for 9 months that my husband was job searching.
I felt like God was calling us back to Texas, and it seemed like everything was working out for us to be there. Again, God provides for us in all situations. In the end we sold, and left our beautiful community and it cost a fortune to move pulling out of our 401K to just get out of the mountain of debt it cost to move across the country. We quickly realized we were in a spiritual desert about 6 months after moving back to Texas, and 3 moves later of temporary homes. We finally said we are ready to give up the big paycheck and move back even into a small fixer upper and live on one income. God provided again - with an amazing fully remote job for my husband who’d given up on even applying for them and was about to accept a different role for much less just to get back approximately to our old community.
My reason for saying this, just have faith and God will provide for you on whatever path you take. He will be with you.
Life with Melody has very often placed me in the position for my heart to ask, “Who is coming to fix this!?” It has been an indirect question my soul screams out to God. Because I’m afraid to ask directly. If He will ever change this path with a miracle for my daughter, or if the miracle is the path and watching it all unfold. I don’t want it to be the latter, but that is what it has been so far. So much humanity and so much divine unrelenting presence in the pain.
Obvs, our walks are currently very different in so many ways, but also very similar. Thanks again for sharing, it is so encouraging and makes me feel less alone!
Sweet Mikayla… your words are always authentic & amazing in how they turn my heart toward Him. I honestly kind of love that Surrender has 6 parts — so far — 😆. Idk if I told you but the word I felt like the Lord laid on my heart for 2025 was SURRENDER. We are walking out that word in very different ways… but… mine has had multiple parts too… glad it’s not just me. Surrendering fear of the future, dread, pain & shame of the past, the addictive illusion of control and instead living surrendered, dying daily, living with intentionality, being fully present & holding it all with an open hand… surrender is all the things & more.
Praying for peace!!! Praying for joy!!! Praying for places to serve & thrive & live abundantly in surrender! For you … & for me!
Praying for you through this. We sold our beautiful home and left our beautiful community last year April 2024 (left) sold home in July 2024 at barely breaking even. I wish in retrospect we hadn’t, and I’d just continued to have faith in the Lord maybe rented the home or something instead of selling. The thing is looking back the Lord was providing for us through our hardship, but I pushed us to leave because I was afraid. So many months of God providing our every need…I was still afraid. I mean truly, it’s strange thinking back on all the financial windfalls God provided for 9 months that my husband was job searching.
I felt like God was calling us back to Texas, and it seemed like everything was working out for us to be there. Again, God provides for us in all situations. In the end we sold, and left our beautiful community and it cost a fortune to move pulling out of our 401K to just get out of the mountain of debt it cost to move across the country. We quickly realized we were in a spiritual desert about 6 months after moving back to Texas, and 3 moves later of temporary homes. We finally said we are ready to give up the big paycheck and move back even into a small fixer upper and live on one income. God provided again - with an amazing fully remote job for my husband who’d given up on even applying for them and was about to accept a different role for much less just to get back approximately to our old community.
My reason for saying this, just have faith and God will provide for you on whatever path you take. He will be with you.
Life with Melody has very often placed me in the position for my heart to ask, “Who is coming to fix this!?” It has been an indirect question my soul screams out to God. Because I’m afraid to ask directly. If He will ever change this path with a miracle for my daughter, or if the miracle is the path and watching it all unfold. I don’t want it to be the latter, but that is what it has been so far. So much humanity and so much divine unrelenting presence in the pain.
Obvs, our walks are currently very different in so many ways, but also very similar. Thanks again for sharing, it is so encouraging and makes me feel less alone!
He loves your surrender, Mikayla. 🤍
Sweet Mikayla… your words are always authentic & amazing in how they turn my heart toward Him. I honestly kind of love that Surrender has 6 parts — so far — 😆. Idk if I told you but the word I felt like the Lord laid on my heart for 2025 was SURRENDER. We are walking out that word in very different ways… but… mine has had multiple parts too… glad it’s not just me. Surrendering fear of the future, dread, pain & shame of the past, the addictive illusion of control and instead living surrendered, dying daily, living with intentionality, being fully present & holding it all with an open hand… surrender is all the things & more.
Praying for peace!!! Praying for joy!!! Praying for places to serve & thrive & live abundantly in surrender! For you … & for me!